27 July 2010

i fucking miss you

I don't know where you are in this world but I do know that you are in my heart.

Sometimes it feels like we're all floating out here on our own, alone. We reach out and no one reaches back or they don't reach far enough. But sometimes the problem is that we aren't reaching far enough... yea, that's the problem. Try harder and don't let it hurt you so much when they don't try as hard. That's life baby.

I'm sad today. I'm sad for a friend I lost 4 years ago. I'm sad for a friend I lost last year. I'm also sad for the friends I've drifted away from in the past 4+ years. I'm awful at returning phone calls & emails and I know I should try harder. I should be the planner, the instigator. But I am not. And I feel it's emptiness.

If we are or were friends please know that I love you and that I miss you, today and always. If you ever need anything I will be that person you can count on, I promise. ALWAYS. I'm sorry we have been carried by the currents of our lives, apart. I would promise to try harder but I don't want to disappoint either of us.

So in the absence of the usual circle of love, My Heart and I will get on bikes and ride the shit out of them tonight. We may not be in Venice but know that our hearts are.

XOXO

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3 comments:

nicknkaz said...

Michele, You my dear are a special soul! Lots of love from Australia <3 Kaz

Summer said...

Sadly, it happens to all of us - you won't find a single person out there who hasn't lost touch with at least a few special people in their lives. It sucks big time, but know that it's not your fault - it's just the way life is. At least, that's what I try to tell mySELF. ;) I love you to pieces and am so thankful for your friendship. Big XOXO always.

Anonymous said...

Your friend has a very touching story. It is difficult to not shed a tear even for someone who never knew him.

You have a tender heart, and I know your empathy runs deep for him and his kin. I love you today and every day. Thank you for being who you are and sharing yourself, too.

Time and distance leave their mark, but having you as a part of my life has shaped who I am in the most profound way.

Giving of oneself is more noble than any other possession, even every last coin of one's riches.