what ever happened to tuesday

There's something about driving in the car all by yourself that lets the sadness seep in. The loss of life puts everything in perspective and that time alone just helps your thoughts roam freely. I'm notorious for crying on my drive in to work. This morning was no exception. That Van Morrison song Brown Eyed Girl came on the radio and it reminded me of the people that love me and that I love.

Of the 3 girls my parents had, I am the only one with brown eyes. I believe my sisters used to refer to them as my poop brown eyes (or maybe that was just me - I've always been jealous of their blue eyes and brown hair). When I left my home in Colorado Springs almost 10 years ago one of my sisters made me a CD. On it were a lot of songs about my new home, California. But it also had songs that would remind me that it was from her and showed me how much she loved me. It's one of my favorite gifts ever. And because Brown Eyed Girl is on that CD I can't help but think of my sisters when I hear it. I miss them. It makes me sad to be so far away from them and their lives.

To all you people out there listening, life goes by in the blink of an eye. Before you know it times are lost and we're all grown. Don't forget to say thank you and I love you and to share part of yourself with friends and family. I'm sad that my platelets weren't the cure but at least he knew I cared and I got to see his smile one last time. Now if you'll excuse me, I've got some phone calls to make.

milk came out my nose

I think all of you out there in blog-land should check out this new show on G4 called Web Soup (if you like Talk Soup you're gonna love it). It's funny and got all of the best clips from around the web. It airs Sunday at 9pm ET.

Oh, and there's this hilarious telephone operator girl that has a bit part in every show that I may or may not be friends with. Oh, and also I may or may not be friends with one of the executive producers.

If you don't have G4, it often re-airs on E! so look for it there. While you're at it go ahead and subscribe to the podcast on iTunes (give it a rating too - might I suggest 5 stars!?). DO IT!

Web Soup

my trending topic

Tomorrow I'm going to be a part of something I think is very important. In this day and age of internet communication we can all be a part of the global community. What's going on in Iran speaks to all of us. We are one human race all in need of basic human rights. And now with social media outlets like youtube, facebook and twitter we can reach out to each other in our times of need.

Neda has become the face of the faceless and we are going to be the voice of the voiceless. For all those Iranians reaching out, we hear your cries and we want you to know that they do not fall on deaf ears. Tomorrow, our voices will be heard. Please join me for the I AM NEDA shoot in Culver City, CA and be the voice the world needs to hear. For any Iranians wanting to be heard, please send us your wants, your needs... you can post them in the comments on this blog, visit the facebook page or tweet them to @onlyoneL so that your message can continue to spread. UPDATE: Go to voiceofthevoiceless.net/beheard to send your message instantly!

If you want to know, WHO WAS NEDA? follow the link.

For additional info on the I AM NEDA shoot follow the link.

Please stay tuned for additional information on the launch of the finished video and check out the website for more info on VoiceoftheVoiceless.net

the man, the myth, the legend

My heart is heavy today and it's not because some celebrity that I never knew or looked up to has passed away. My heart is heavy because last night I lost a friend and mentor. After a difficult battle with leukemia, Stuart Bartell passed away. He leaves this world hopefully to find peace and happiness else where but he also leaves an emptiness impossible to fill.

Stuart,

Thank you for everything you have given me over the years. The smile and warmth of a friend. The courage and help of a mentor. I knew that walking into that building and seeing you would bring joy to my day. Those around me knew how special you made me feel. I will never forget your laughter, your love, your selflessness. I'm sad to see you go but grateful I had a chance to know you. You have touched so many people over the years and you will be missed by each and every one of them.

Thank you and may you rest in peace dear friend.
With all my love...

pocket aces aren't always the tits

Spent the weekend in Vegas. Trip started out with pre-gaming (work beers - why do they make you drunker than home beers!?) before My Heart picked me up on Friday night. At some point we were talking about directions when I asked him to stop talking because I had to pee. I had to pee so bad all I could concentrate on was NOT peeing. So we stopped at a gas station... at this point we were still in LA.

From there the trip got better I guess. Not that it was bad just unpredictable. We got to our room at the Rio around midnight and basically just went to sleep. My Heart's WSOP event was the next day starting at noon so he needed to rest up.

We were hoping to have a breakfast meet up with the family and friends that had come out for the weekend but you know how it goes with a big group of people. It was just too hard to coordinate so we ended up wandering for quite a bit until his parents eventually arrived. The thing about the Rio is that it's off the strip which some how makes it a destination (not that you can actually walk to most places on the strip - the size of those places make the distances deceiving). Anyway, big surprise as we turned the corner to greet Mom and Dad was BROTHER!!! It was an awesome surprise that sure made My Heart happy.

From there it was poker time. The event went well for his first big one. I suppose he wishes he would have done better - like win money better. But I think it was a great experience. I certainly enjoyed watching the games being played. I stood trying to get a glimps of My Heart but his table was so far away I could only see his hat (over 2,700 entrants). Fortunately for me pro player Brandon Cantu had an edge table and I got to watch him play for a few hours. We also saw Doyle Brunson, Phil Hellmuth (who threw an awesome mf bomb when he got knocked out but eventually came over for pictures) and Daniel Negreanu to name a few.

Drove home Sunday after a quick Father's Day breakfast. My Heart just needed to get out of there. Me, I'm jonsing for some poker action of my own now. Anyone up for a game?

blush one size too small

Man have I been a suck hole of good times this week. I just can't shake it. Tried the Aunt M 3 day method and it was working for a while but then I just slipped back down. Today it was definitely the change thing that got me. I'm gonna learn to be okay with it because I still get a paycheck every week but it's not going to be easy.

Last night I had a great dinner that helped to bring my smile back for a bit... onion rings, sliders and mac & cheese (so naughty but so yummy). Tonight My Heart is working late so I'll go run a quick errand or two, do some laundry to get ready for the weekend and then just enjoy the quiet for a moment or two.

By the way, we're going to Vegas again this weekend. I'm most looking forward to the drive out there - is that strange? It's just the thought of hours full of peaceful music filled time with My Heart. Then he'll abandon me for a poker tourney and I'll go chill with his family.

Oh, one last thing... saw this in the window of J. Crew at the Grove last night and fell in love. Might actually plan a wedding based solely on this dress (problem is, don't think My Heart will like the dress actually). Friend S thinks we should have an outing to at least go try it on. What's the harm right?

computer discombobulation and a corpse

3 local things i found interesting today:

Shakespeare by the Sea

ASPCA Advocacy Alerts

Stinky

dreaming of being a tiger

I've been really grumpy so far this week. Maybe it's change. Maybe it's PMS. Maybe I'm just tired. But watch out... I'M A BITCH!

• I hate that you can never make plans with some friends 'cause they always flake but then you see all the other shit they do on facebook.
• I hate when stupid people get recognition for shit they didn't even do.
• I hate when people have a wandering eye as you're trying to have an important conversation with them.
• I hate when people forget you're standing right there and either A) completely ignore you as they talk to someone else (that you don't know) or B) talk shit as if you aren't standing right there.
• I hate not knowing what's going on at work even though it's going to effect my job.
• I hate trying to do something but never getting it done.
• I hate feeling so tired and so grumpy and maybe a little bit sad but not knowing exactly why.

step by step, oh baby

Behold the majesty of our new red wall!



My Heart thinks it might have been better before hanging the poster but I think it's the perfect combo. (although the giant red wall almost dwarfs the picture) Now we just need to change out the yellow window, the light fixture, the carpet in the stairwell and the railing!

dosers without the fraggles

The answer is YES! The wall was red when I got home and boy is it beautiful :-) - pictures to come.
I love My Heart and his parents!!! They did so much work around the house yesterday, it looked amazing. I can't wait to see what they've done today.

But first I've gotta make a little detour to the Key Art Awards. We're up for 4 as a company this year. I'm really hoping we take home one for the Nightmare Before Christmas spot that has been nominated. It's an awesome spot and is really near and dear to my heart.

Remember last year when I went on the hunt for the perfect dress for this event? And then just ended up with these instead? Well, in a matter of minutes I found 3 dresses all under $40! (of course I bought all 3 but will be going with one similar to this - but in RED!)

I'll let you know the results of the show, if any. The rest of the weekend holds more family time and WEDDING DRESS SHOPPING (but not for me so don't get your panties in a ruffle).

up up and away

I'm hoping to go home to find a new red wall of my own... I'm hoping! (and I'll let you know)

"Fun Day" Fine Art Print By Karen Cougan

Friend C showed me this great site called Red Bubble. It's so great because not only can you see these amazing images but you can buy them too! And it's a little community to share writings and what not on. I love it! Friend J is going to put some of her work up there. It's really inspiring. I'm going to start small though. Thanks to My Sister I'm going to try and do me some Photo Friday! Get ready...

the ties that bind

In-laws* arrived yesterday. I'm sure when I say that some people just cringe at the thought. Where did that stigma come from? My thinking is, they basically created the person you are in love with so why would you not naturally love them too!? But I guess in reality there are a lot of different factors in creating who someone is and they shouldn't necessarily be judged by their parents.

With that said, I absolutely love my in-laws. They are wonderful, normal, fun and caring people. I love being at their house as it's so inviting and home-like even from the moment you step through the front door. It's just comfortable and they are comfortable. My Heart's Dad has the best sense of humor and My Heart's Mom has so many of the same interests as me. What's not to love!?

This is the first time they are visiting us as a pair and in our new home. There's a little pressure to make sure they are comfortable but only from myself. So far so good I think (it's only been one night and I've spent the day at work while they've entertained themselves!). Tonight we'll all head to the Dodger game as a family. I'm looking forward to it.


*We may not be married but with a ring on the finger, a mortgage to pay and four years behind us I think it's safe to call them my in-laws!

ill communication

This goes out to all of you in the knuckle bump gang - you know who you are...



Now, I've tried to be nice and I'm gonna continue to try to be nice but don't think I don't know. I'm no naive young girl and I will not get fucked by any of you. I'm looking out for number one.


As you can tell blogland, life has been a roller coaster. Which can be a scary ride but always fun as hell in the end. Things were all settling down from the big move and then some shit got turned upside down.

Thursday we had some layoffs.

Friday we had people over to drink and watch the fireworks from Dodger stadium. It was great and I drank so much that most of Saturday was a wash.

Saturday night ended up meeting some out of town friends in for a visit at Gingergrass for dinner. And then headed to the Red Lion to have a sausage & beer dessert!

Sunday was wine tasting with Friend C thanks to Terry Dadd, financial advisor extradionaire, at San Anonio Winery in downtown LA.

And Monday was the premiere of Oh Baby, I Love You! the short film Friend S has been working so hard to get out into the world. Check out the website for the trailer cut by My Heart :-)

As we settle into the week, Tuesday brings a visit from the in-laws. I'm actually really looking forward to this time we're about to spend with them.

Who knows what the future holds at this point but I'm looking optimistically at what is about to become...

fly away with me

I purchased this lovely piece of art from a little shop on Etsy yesterday called beepart

Since we're going with a yellow accent theme in the office now (I think...), this will go above my desk for a little pop. I LOVE it! What do you think?

P.S.
I forgot to mention that the lovies over at Cupcakes Take The Cake shared this treasure with me yesterday!

the blood on my sleeve

Today's post is for My Heart...
Remember when we were dancing in the kitchen at the old apartment to this song playing on the radio? Well, it was on in the car today while I was driving to work and I thought of that moment. I just replayed it in my mind and smiled.

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment baby sing with me
I love peace for melody
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours!

- I'm Yours
Jason Mraz

Then I flipped the station and was instantly transported to this world:



Today is a day for love. So I'm sending it out to you right now and I hope you can feel it. XOXO


P.S.
Happy 47th month-iversary