the here and now

Was jolted awake at 4am this morning by a magnitude 4.4. Haven't been sleeping that well anyway so what's a little ground shaking gonna do. My sleep schedule has gone awry and so have I. I'm lost in this brown dust cloud and all I've got is this little straw to breath through. Not sure when it happened or why. I went to the doctor and got some meds to help try and cope but so far it feels like it's making things worse. I can't fall asleep. Once I fall asleep I don't want to get out of bed. I haven't gotten up for work with the alarm in over 2 weeks. I'm barely making it through the day. And I guess that's why I've been away.