go to your room

Wow, I guess I opened up a can of worms yesterday. I'm sure it's no big deal and who knows if she's even right but here's some more info (guess it helps me deal anyway)...


I WARN YOU ALL NOW - THIS IS GOING TO GET IMMENSELY PERSONAL AND POSSIBLY EMBARRASSING SO IF YOU DON'T THINK YOU CAN HANDLE IT THEN STOP READING NOW!

ANSWERS:

Aunt M, I think it will help my body get back on a normal cycle.

Friend D, Yes, I might have multiple cysts on my ovaries which may make it difficult for me to have children in the future but is not life threatening in ANY way. I ate the carbs because I am self destructive.

Read on for more info...

During the months of July and August I bled for about four weeks. It would stop and then it would start right up again. I thought it was vacation. The stress of traveling. Turning 30. When we got home I ended up going off my birth control pill. It was only because the prescription ran out and I hadn't yet found a new doctor I was comfortable enough to go to. So when November rolled around and I still hadn't found a new doctor and I still hadn't been on the pill I realized that I also hadn't had my period in about 3 months. Now, I know what you're thinking but trust me I knew, there was no chance in hell that I was pregnant. I called a doctor's office I hadn't been to in 2 years and scheduled an appointment with some new lady. I figured it was worth a try.
She did the usual exam and also talked about the lack of period, the previous ultrasounds I had to have when the pain was unbearable, my hair growth (stupid mustache), the acne I've started to get (I know my skin looks perfect but I can feel them - and it's not paranoia) and the fact that I can't seem to lose the weight. All of these could be symptoms of PCOS which is not only cysts on your ovaries but also a hormonal imbalance. Part of that imbalance means not being able to properly digest carbohydrates. So along with referring me to another doctor for some additional tests she suggested I go off the carbs for 3 to 4 weeks to see how my body would react.
My mind reacted with a panic and sudden NEED for carbs. I figured the sandwich and mac & cheese was my last hurrah. I've had some bread and fruit here and there but I'm trying to be conscious of it. I happen to meet a new friend the day this all went down and she has PCOS. She said it's all about balance. Isn't everything?
Thing is - I don't really think I have this. But it would be nice to have some answers. Or would it be nice to have an excuse?